I can let go of and give (to others) etc. all the good stuff. If I release it, it’s gone just like if the door is closed; It’s closed. Yeah, I am naturally a very possessive person.
Honestly, it could be the undiagnosed autism. If it’s mine, it’s mine.
We are all meta(morphing).
Like those silly Animorphs…
What nightmares are made of! I can’t believe these are books?!
I got sidetracked…
Especially when it comes to certain situations. “I have to not get too attached”, I repeat to myself. I want to be for someone fully. I despise cheating, here’s the thing everyone gets tempted but the action taken defines the willpower and strength to preserver even when faced with adversity.
I’m not sure what the other side looks like. I want to be happy that’s for sure. The only person whom I can make choices for is myself. If being nonchalant will stop me from being hurt down the line then that is what I pick.
I don’t want to play defense with my heart.
Sometimes timelines coincide or run parallel. Granted, never again will I get my hopes up. Been there done that. It happens so slowly too not noticing it. You start new patterns and all of a sudden they are a feature film in your mind. No matter how iconic that may be, I’m not a cinema.
Since 2015, it has been playing endlessly in my mind as one of my all-time favorite live sessions performed by Lohaus. Everything from the ambient mood to the delicate teacup.
https://youtu.be/zMkNPSQ5QyQ?si=33H92LB-aPw2yGe3